Amazing Fact to ME!!!

i hav think bout this b4.(not long ago.......last year.)

y is GOD so unfair to me to the others?

y is HE treating me so WELL?

HE have given me my best frens n best classmates,

they r uncomparison to all the humans in this world.

my secondary school life had been so perfect that i hav nothing to complain.

my frens are so important to me that makes me feel like

my life is incomplete without them.

without them,i'm different from now.

no this much laughter, no sweet memories,no pain,no smile.

PERFECT moments always don't last long,five years hav past.

i've wondering how m i going to continue my studies juz without my classmates?

i still have them as my frens,

but i will never hav them rounding me n ask me different~different questions.

i won't hav them shouting at me when i'm making noise in front of the classroom,

i won't hav them sitting bsides me during recess.

i oso won't hav them winking at me when i'm doing my prefect's duty.

n oso never would hear them cheering at me whenever i'm standing on stage.

i will never heard yun yee,kher ye n xiau jing saying me crazy whenever i get my good results without studying.
even ying xian,i ning,dharishini n phui mun will never hav chance to stop me from continuing my speech in my broken english.

blur~blur de sally n oi wei won't hav chance smilling at me sillyly.

i oso won't hear jia min,pui mei n bee sze calling me xiang ru whenever they got sumthing to ask.

eileen,michelle,pey shin won't sit in the same class when i've tuition.
n v dun hav chance to ask pn.saadah to hav a party in her house again...................

i hav always hope that i will be "as important as them to me" in most of their heart,

but i think i've been mistaken.

most of them tend to mind only their new lives in new environment.

only sum of them hav d interest to continue our relationships as previously.

even when v meet up, their topics hav always been different with mine.

they won't joke with me juz like wat v hav in our previous class.

sum of them dun even smile the same to me like last time.

it sounds ridiculus when i remembered not only one of them said that 5sc3 is the BEST!!!

n all of us are perfect to b frens.

wat have change?is it really our characteristic hav changed?

or they hav really grown so much mature than i am?

r my hopes stupid? or even impossible?

m i the only one who think that they are so unique?

or i'm not so "important" as i thought?

cnt denied, i've been so dissapointed,

becauz noone can substitude them in my life.....

sumtimes, i even day dreaming that i cn ask all of them to study in my new school.

but i soon will giv up that thought bcauz it seems that i'm the only one who think so.

even now,whenever i'm making new frens in my new school,i will automaticly search for the shadows of my previous classmates.

i duno y that i will try to find sumone who is similiar to them. (i know that will be unfair to my new frens.)

anyway,since most of them din contact me anymore,

i can only think bout them due to the memories that i hav when v spent our teenage's life together previously.

it is really strange to me.y is there a person so miss bout sumone,but that person who hav been missed still can live as usual without even realise it or response to it.

this make me remember one word in chinese,is that called one side love?

of course, my love to them is due to friendships.

but may be i can say this way, i hav make them a part of my family.